Friday, October 24, 2008


tonight i found myself with an unexpected free evening. i was planning on going to the high school football game, but the day's rain postponed the game until monday. i eventually found myself browsing the walls of blockbuster looking for something fun to watch. i narrowed my choices down to charlie wilson's war, a spanish movie called la misma luna and dan in real life. i wasn't completely sold on charlie wilson's war, i felt like keeping up with the subtitles of la misma luna would be too much work for a friday night, and although i'd seen dan in real life when it was in theaters, all i could really remember about it was that i liked it. so dan in real life came home with me.

if you haven't seen it, i definitely recommend it. i've been pretty tired lately. a bit worn out and grumpy, too. things are fine overall, but i haven't completely felt like myself. i got to go on vacation last week and visit my cousin jeremy, his wife(my cousin-in-law) kierstin and their son (my nephew cousin) eli in tennessee. it was a much needed and enjoyable rest filled with good conversation, good laughs, good music and really good food. a refreshing time. i always love being with that part of my family.

i mention that because i think it helps (me, at least) make sense of why this movie got to me the way it did. in one scene, there is a family talent show. the two brothers perform the song, "let my love open the door":

i know i've heard this song before, but i heard it differently tonight. i felt as though the words "let my love open the door" were being sung to me by God. a reminder to not close myself off from Him. while i was in tennessee i came across John 14:1, where Christ says, "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me." i guess my heart has been troubled lately and it hasn't really been open to God. i've been trusting myself more than anything.

after the movie, i looked up the lyrics to the song and here is what i found:

When people keep repeating
That you'll never fall in love
When everybody keeps retreating
But you can't seem to get enough
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

When everything feels all over
When everybody seems unkind
I'll give you a four-leaf clover
Take all the worry out of your mind
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

I have the only key to your heart
I can stop you falling apart
Try today, you'll find this way
Come on and give me a chance to say
Let my love open the door

It's all I'm living for
Release yourself from misery
Only one thing's gonna set you free
That's my love

Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

When tragedy befalls you
Don't let them bring you down
Love can cure your problem
You're so lucky I'm around
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
Let my love open the door
To your heart

pete townshend is the name of the guy who wrote the song. i don't know anything about him personally, but despite some of the lyrics being a little cheesy, i feel like these are words that the Savior could have written, especially when it says, "Release yourself from misery. Only one thing's gonna set you free. That's my love." it was a great reminder to me that the Lord has given me a new heart and that the only place to put my trust is in Him. the last place i expected to be reminded of that truth was in this movie. glad that game got postponed.

Monday, August 11, 2008

circle f flashback

today i got to visit friends at circle f. although i don't work there anymore, i love to visit when i get a chance. i was particularly excited to go today since i knew a lot of the counselors this summer back when they were campers. it's crazy to me to look at pictures from almost ten years ago and then today...

me with Jordan, one of the guys in my first cabin, in 1999

me with Jordan today , who is now a sophomore in college

me with Logan, in 2001

me with Logan today...could i look any smaller???

Afton, me, Cecily and Ashley in 2002

me and Afton today

me and Cecily today

me with Austin in 2002

me with Austin today, as he prepares to be a freshman in high school

Jake on my shoulders, with Drew in 2003

me and Jake today

i feel so fortunate and blessed that i've gotten to be a part of something so cool, and that i have so many lasting relationships because of it.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008


i've always been a fan of movies. when i was in high school, i would spend summers catching the twilight showing of movies at the amc theater for something like 4 bucks a ticket. i loved it. every now and then a movie would come along that i would see in the theater multiple times. for a while i had a crush on sandra bullock and thought she was the best thing ever, so i saw movies like speed 2 several times in the theater just because she was in it. seeing speed 2 more than once proves how much of a die hard fan i was back in those days. i actually remember seeing the first speed with my dad and telling him i liked it so much that i thought it was better than the lion king. to this day, i have a soft spot for her.

one time my cousins were in town and they introduced me to the joy of watching happy gilmore. we laughed so hard at that movie and ben stiller saying, "read the name tag. you're in my world now, grandma."

i think in my junior year i became fascinated with the cheesy horror flick and wasted more hours than was healthy on viewings of i know what you did last summer.

while i was home in tampa over christmas, i saw a movie that i'd been hearing a lot about called juno. the short synopsis is that it's a story about a junior in high school named juno who becomes pregnant and decides to give the baby up for adoption. while there were a few moments that made me uncomfortable, it was the most fun i'd had at a movie in a long time. line after line had me laughing out loud. i read a lot about movies and i so appreciated that the laughs mostly came from clever dialogue. and for all of the sarcastic one liners, it had a lot of heart and sincerity.

on sunday, my roommate and i checked out the kite runner, a faithful adaption of one of my favorite books. it tells a pretty heavy story and we felt like we needed a pick-me-up after watching it. my roommate thought juno looked funny and i thought i could handle seeing it again, so we headed back out after a quick bite to eat at home. what i didn't expect was to like the movie even more after seeing it the second time. even tonight lines from the movie ran through my head and before i knew it i was laughing to myself. i'm a big fan of sarcasm, and i felt like this movie had plenty of it to go around.

below is a video of two of the guys in the movie that shows a quick clip with one of my favorite moments between juno and the father of her child, paulie bleeker. it's nothing fancy, but simple and me at least.